2018: a penis odyssey (Depression, PIED, PE escpecially).

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For those struggling with depression, PE, PIED.
2018: a penis odyssey.

This thread will be a written account for myself and my penis, lets call her Jhene (Juh-nae), and our trials, tribulations, progress, and hopefully one day, ride off into the sunset.

Lets start with introductions,
I'm 20 years old, Asian/Caucasian descent, almost 6'1", 160lbs trying to reach 175, pretty active, very fast metabolism. Jhene, my penis, (for those of you wondering) is about 5.5", pushing 6" on a really good day.

This is my story,
I lost my virginity in high school during a V drunk hookup, it only lasted a minute or two but thats normal I guess. My sexual experience since then has been limited to several other DRUNK highschool one night stands, more or less the same as the first with the exception of a relationship that I'll get to later. After graduation I moved down to So Cal for University in 2016/17. Looking in hindsight I think I've always been depressed but loosing my friends and support group from my hometown took a toll on me during my first year at college. I stopped talking to people. I experimented with different drugs (amphetamines, xans, leannn, alc, and a lot of THC). I became addicted to porn and I'd masturbate often several times a day in my room to it. This was an extremely destructive lifestyle that compounded my depression and severely fucked up how my brain looked for dopamine. I had severe anxiety attacks and irrational fits of paranoia in the middle of the night and it was only getting worse. In May of 2017 I took an unknown amount of LSD (I reckon it to have been ~ 400-500 micrograms) and fell into complete and utter ego death (In case your confused here's a random account of an ego death: https://the-numinous.com/ego-death/ ). The following day I felt almost cured of my depression, with a newfound enthusiasm for life that persists in some ways to this day. I was so happy to be alive and grateful that I didn't kill myself. ***DISCLAIMER*** I do not advocate the use of lsd, ESPECIALLY if you are depressed. I was lucky with how my situation unfolded and well aware that it easily could've turned out much worse. Lsd did not cure my depression. *** Anyways, my bad habits fell by the wayside as I went home for the summer. I went stone cold sober for the summer and stopped masturbating/watching porn. Not because I wanted to per say, but because I was literally high off life and didn't feel the desire to.

When I got back to school in September I started seeing this girl, she was absolutely gorgeous, to this day I swear I've never seen a more beautiful woman in my life. We got along insanely well it was almost scary how well we clicked. BUT, there was a problem. When it came down to making a move I felt as if there was never an opportunity. Come to think of it I felt like making a move was almost a chore. Eventually she got more sexually aggressive but when we finally lied down together to FUCK.. I couldn't get Jhene (my penis) up. At all. For my life. I felt awful, completely demasculated, and inadequate as a man. We stopped seeing each other romantically after that but we stayed friends... I did my research and found that my swift withdrawal from porn after to my porn addiction resulted in a flatline, in short I was asexual, at least for the time being. This sucked because it made me realize how much I actually liked this girl. I mean our relationship, at least on my end was based off of pure emotional intimacy, that's nuts. I was determined to break out of this asexuality. I continued to research the issue and found that the only way out of PIED and the Asexual flatline was to live an EXTREMELY healthy lifestyle, to ride the flatline out until desire naturally returned, and to NOT WATCH PORN OR MASTURBATE when this desire returned. So thats exactly what I did. For months I did everything I could to naturally boost testosterone. I went to the gym when I could 3-5 times a week, I took cold showers, I ate a fuckton and as healthy as I could cutting sugar almost entirely and reducing salt. I also started taking Libido boosting supplements like L argentine and Ginko Baloba.

Eventually, after about 5 months (this would make my total flatline about 8 mf months long) it began to creep back. I felt more confident and hanging out with the girl from earlier was a bit more electric. I ended up spending the night at her place in April. Everything was going fantastic and I felt Jhene (my penis) standing at attention ready to go. I pulled her out but as soon as this girl touched my dick to guide it inside her I came. So hard. So unexpectedly... Wow. It was so embarrassing she had to big spoon me to sleep. It took me almost a year to conquer PIED just for Premature Ejaculation to come in and start its reign of terror on my sex life. PE became the issue for the next several weeks. I honestly never lasted more than 15 seconds despite my best efforts, even in round 2. A couple weeks ago I asked her if she wanted to take our relationship to the next step and make it official.. She said that, as a really physically loving person, we wouldn't work out. I appreciate her honesty and I don't blame her. It's not her responsibility to nurse my dick back to health. We're still friends but, its different now. I don't know, excuse me for being emotional.

THAT BRINGS US TO TODAY.
For the past two weeks I've been edging without porn every couple days, and Reverse Kegeling throughout like a mf. I try to reach the PONR without ejaculating but I usually cum just because its too hard not too. After getting hard Jhene (my penis) can last about 15-20 seconds before she busts. I've found marginal improvement in identifying my PONR and stopping involuntary kegels but its still difficult to not cum when it only takes a few seconds to get me to that point.

How I intend to cure Jhene (my penis) from her PE.

1. Starting tomorrow I will be doing Yoga in the morning to quell my pelvic floor muscles. In addition I will meditate for 15 minutes lying down RK'ing when I inhale and relaxing when I exhale.

2. I'll try to edge for as long as possible every couple days w/o ejaculating. I aim to only reach ejaculation only once per week

3. I'll step up my time in the GYM and focus on squats, deadlifts, and core to support my pelvic floor muscles.

4. Work up the confidence to make sexy moves despite the fact that I know damn well I'll probably last less than a minute.

4. Revised, Make sure my head game is A.1.

Fin. ***I intend to update this thread weekly. Feel free to ask any questions especially about PIED/flatline bc I feel like I can help there. I hope that this thread will be helpful to somebody!***