Reflecting on the last year

Originally Posted by Perses

One year ago I went to a rock concert at a live music venue pub - it was a fully booked out event. When I went to the urinals I felt super shy and embarrassed to be in the lineup, hanging a leak next to strangers; I was lacking confidence, and was inches from my desired ideal.

That night inspired me to get back into PE exercises and to start taking it a bit more seriously (I had tried it a little a few years before and saw some encouraging newbie gains, but working on improving myself wasn't a big priority at the time).

So last August I started doing a little more research on PE and completed a JP90 course and continued this for a total of five or so months, and despite encouraging gains (+3/8" BPEL and +3/8" MSEG), I stopped jelqing as the main exercise and upon receiving a BIB Hanger I had ordered, began to hang. After a few months of mostly hanging and occasional jelqing, I began a PE logbook in late July. Since recording my efforts and monitoring my consistency, my hanging weight has increased from 2.75kg to 4.25kg with an average weekly hanging time of 4 - 5 hours. Whilst I was maintaining a sense of discipline with my routines my enthusiasm was getting stale.

About ten days ago I decided to reintroduce some regular jelqing into my schedule and took another progress measurement. When I was flipping through my PE logbook to record my results I was reminded that it had been about a year since I started my disciplined approach (such as it is) to PE. My gains have so far been +5/8" BPEL and +3/8" MSEG. This was rather encouraging since the last year has flown by and I can see that I have tangible results in the mid/long-term.

For the last ten days since reintroducing a jelqing regime into my workouts even my flaccid hang has felt amazing and consistently full. Yesterday, while I was at the urinal at work my coworker entered the bathroom and was taking a piss next to me. We started having a chat and mid-conversation I saw his eyes wander south followed by a surprised and embarrassed expression on his face. It was a funny situation that I didn't think much of.

Later that day I was reminded of myself one year ago and how uncomfortable and nervous I was in those same situations. Nowadays, I'm pissing at public urinals, feeling confident and proud to be among other men.

I still have heaps more progress to go in order to reach my PE goals, but so far my best achievement is the shift in my attitude about myself.