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As far as I could remember, I have always had an active mind. I was capable of deep thought from and early age. This lead to me be a smart individual and also to me having a lot of lucid dreams. I remember when i used to be aware that I am dreaming and try to wake myself up, which was successful. I used to just close my eyes in my dreams and wake up. I remember when I used to get erections by just using my mind, which was cool to me.

I used to observe people a lot. I noticed their behavioral patterns as it relates to dealing with people. Some guys used to always try to make fun of their friends in front of everybody as a way of trying to Alpha up on him. They will also try to use and means possible just to seem cool to everybody, so that the can try to establish some form of dominance over their peers. I used to wonder why do we people can to be dominant over one another. Was it because of fear ? Was it because it was fun to hurt other people feelings ? Maybe it is because deep down we all want to control people and create an ideal world.

People in general want to be perfect,but there is no such thing as perfection because of diversity. We are all unique, which results in us having different like and dislikes. So you may think you are the best thing ever, but not everyone will think so. We can't control other people, all we can do is try to be the best person we can be. If someone doesn't like it so what don't make other people's opinions throw you off your path. We only have one life and we can do want ever we want to do with it.

I have to learn how to control my active mind, else it will run wild with negative thoughts which will manifest itself in the form of diseases. So I need to mediate more. I also need to rationalize my thoughts, so that I can think straight and not worry about pointless stuff. I also need to right down a lot of my thoughts,so that I use them as life goals.