Day #4 on my path to a stronger self inside and out.

I had a break from PE yesterday. I got up super early - for me at 6 am to head out for a motorbike event. Which was fun. By 11 pm, I just wanted sleep.

Yesterday also schooled me a bit. I realize I need to start at ground zero again. I have approach anxiety with women. Yesterday all we were doing was talking and handing out leaflets about motorcycle awareness. How hard is handing out a leaflet?

Well I was kinda finding it difficult yesterday. Honestly I wasn't feeling great. A bit of a dry throat and just kinda tired from being up so early and I let myself just focus on that. I was finding saying "Hi" difficult so I hid behind the dry throat feel like shit excuse. I bitched out. No excuses. I'm not beating up on myself, just observing. This time I feel like I'm prepared.

Today I'm out on my bike again. Sooner or later I'm gonna need. gas. So I plan to just "convey confidence". #1 posture. Walk in nice and tall. #2. Talk with confidence. And if its a chick, fist pump! I'm a pretty hot albiet skinny biker guy, I know it get admiring glances (a little too timid to act just now, that will change). I'm gonna do it. Baby steps. Anyone reading and wants to do this with me, please do. I only ask to tell me how it is for you. I'd like to hear other peoples perspective.

Honestly like I said, I'm really pale white and skinny with the ever slightest muscle tone and washboard abs. I have a kinda high pitched voice, although my slight Aussie accent makes it cool. I can work on my voice. I'm happy with my build, I don't feel a need to get buff. I'm an ectomorph - high fast paced meatblosim. Costs me $80 a day to keep me full. I'm always hungry. My dad is the same. His father before him. So on and so forth. Put me in an eating competition I'll take it out. Always hungry.

I am an awesome guy. I don't always convey it though and only people who know can see. Which obviously limits my chances with anything in life - careers, women. I appear beta because I act it. I can be alpha. I can see it. I can taste it. Its up to me to get off my ass and become it. Which I'm doing. One step at a time, starting today.

Going to be doing PE tonight. Morning after the first day I woke hard as rock. It stayed that way for a good while too which is awesome! Same result last few days. And here I am day 4 and no porn.I haven't had time for porn Out all day doing stuff, like yesterday, rode to that awareness meet, hung out with friends, went to a school fair, hung out with other friends had a bbq for dinner, watched TV, completely zonked. Feeling pretty good though. Going for a good ride, gonna see mates today. Sun's up its a beaut day. Feeling pretty happy and confident. I'm going to and fist pump a few chicks! Hell yeah I'm kinda excited. Will let you know how its goes. Guess its like when you apex a perfect corner oh man its good. Like a beer on a hot afternoon. Like getting with that girl you've had that crush on. Anyway action time. Later!